No Way Those Will Fit

Every once in a while I pull something out of my closet and try it on.  That's the easiest way for me to judge my progress.  Sure, the scale is nice but it's just numbers.  Trying on something that hasn't fit in years and thinking, "I should wear this to work tomorrow," is a great feeling!  Looking at a pair of pants and thinking, "no way those will fit," and being able to put them on... that's awesomeness. That's sixty pounds of awesomeness. 

A Few More Miles

So, I've gone a few more miles down the road. I'm down 55 pounds. Sometimes I think I should be totally skinny by now. I mean, how is it fair that I've lost this much and I'm still huge? Then I remember that life isn't fair. It's never been fair, that's not the point of life. Life is meant to be survived... if you can thrive and enjoy the journey, that's a bonus.

I had labs drawn last week. I've been on pins and needles since then. Losing 14% of my weight and eating with care and purpose (for some reason, the word mindfulness irritates the crap out of me) should make a difference. And it did!! My A1c is almost back to normal, my fasting glucose is down 23 points, and my lipid profile is awesome. For the first time in my life, I can't wait for my next doctor's appointment. I'll be walking in like a boss.

Another one bites the dust

I dropped into the twenties this week... I love to slide past the zeroes! Every pound lost is proof that I can do this. I can DO this! Doing it is a real confidence booster, too. I realized yesterday that I was walking like a boss. I had to laugh... it's been a very long time since I did that.

Still Here, Still Strong

This isn't my first rodeo. I've been riding the weight loss bronco for a long, long time. No one gets this far in life without being bucked a few times. But this time is different. A couple of people have asked me what I'm doing to lose weight. I can see them waiting, hoping, longing for an easy answer. I feel bad, because I remember having that kind of hope. "If only someone tells me the secret, the easy way, the painless way..." No one ever did. There is no easy answer. Seriously, if losing weight were easy, no one would be fat. The true secret to losing weight isn't expending more energy than you consume. That's the science. The secret, and one that took me decades to realize, is that you have to want it more than anything else. So, that's what I tell people. Make weight loss your priority, and let no one and nothing distract you. I have rock solid, unshakeable goals this time, and there is nothing I want more.

I see a future for myself, and I will not allow pizza, ice cream, cookies, candy, Doritos or anything else to get in my way. I want this MORE. I'll suffer through bouts of depression, crying my eyes out instead of eating to feel better. I'll track my food day in and day out just to keep myself honest. I'll walk past any food that doesn't fit into my plan for the day. I been doing it for the past 3+ months, and you know what? It's working. I'm down 53 pounds. 53! It's friggin incredible. It's also hard as hell. But, I'll keep doing it anyway. This is probably my last chance to ride the bronco, and I'm holding on for dear life.