I started down this road because I wanted to be a paramedic again. That goal was cemented firmly in the front of my mind. But I've found that the farther I travel, the more reasons I find for continuing. I have never been the sort of person to live a certain way or do a particular thing just because someone else wanted it. Marching to my own drummer pretty much sums up my style. Recently, though, I realized that this journey is not just for me. Much to my own surprise, I want to become a normal-sized person for my parents. They're getting older, just as I am, and I want to complete my transformation in time for them to enjoy it. They worry about me.
I have not led the life my parents would have chosen for me. There has been no wedding, no marriage; I have no children. It wasn't until this year that I really felt bad that I had not produced any babies for my mother to enjoy. Thank goodness my brothers did! Still, it would have been nice for her to have grandbabies from a daughter. She will never have that. It is simply too late. The one important thing that I can give her, however, is my transformation into a healthy, well-proportioned individual. I can achieve this goal, and it will make her happy. Besides, I'm already 18% of the way there!
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